crimsonsunset34

Every day, I wake up, expecting something.
Every night, I hold myself, hoping for something.
But now, I cannot feel.

I cannot tell the truth from dreams or reality.
I cannot find anything within me.
For it is empty.

I remember everything that warmed me.
I remember the first time I lived.
For now, I linger.

Your warmth let me know what was cold.
Your touch let me know what was empty.
For that is all I am.

Empty. Empty as a glass jar.
Lost. Lost like a confused child.
Can I not even cry?

What is left here?
What can I do?
But exist?

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1. What fictional character can you most relate to and why?
Really, I can't say I can because I think most of the characters I know are a little shallow and good-hearted to be me.

2. What historical period would you like to live in?
Right now is real nice. Frankly, any other time, I would have been treated as an object. Why would I want any other time?

3. If you could rename yourself, what would your name be and why?
Honestly, Nadeshiko. I don't know why, I just like the name.

4. What motto do you live by?
I have none to be honest because I'm too fickle.

5. Do you have a virtue or character trait that you wish you had? What is it?
To be honest, I would like to have better memory (I'm too forgetful)

6. What is your greatest fear? Any phobias?
For me, losing my friends and family, but that's normal for anyone.

7. If tomorrow is the end of the world, how would you spend today?
Smiling because I don't know if I will when I die.

8. If you need to sacrifice one of your senses, which would it be?
To be honest, I think I could live without smell. Some things, I DON'T WANT TO SMELL.

9. What is your favorite book?
Sherlock Holmes. I'm not a Sherlockian, but I still like it a lot.

10. Take this test and tell me your results!

I have no intentions of passing this on because frankly, I wouldn't want to know some of these answers.

Taking this sword of strength
You run forward into the sky
For which you scream out
And mouth words that seem to cry.

Beating in this small heartbeat,
You stare into the light distance
As it widens out in my eyes
And ceases in an instance.

Never regretting it your mistakes,
You wish for the bright tomorrow
That blooms into the open
And allows the winds to blow.

Spreading your wings,
You now lift off this ground
Where you have existed
And fly within the sound.

Hoping for the best,
You keep on soaring up high
Into the clouds that I've lost
And never given into the lie.

Forgetting all of the pain,
You hold onto your tears
Which have fallen in your mind
And swallow your fears.

Running forward to here,
You find who you want to be
In the place you wish to live
And never give up on what you see.

For what reason,
I have none to give
Because it is a simple wish
That I hope to bloom and live.

Like that of a small flower
I hope for you to live proudly
And not to hide away from the sun
Cause your heart wishes for it so loudly.

I can see that
Within your smile
Which echoes within me
A thousand miles.

It might be selfish
But I'll still hope for you
And with all my strength
Support whatever you do.

It's not really love
Nor is it anything strange
But the bond we share
Will never change.

So, spread your petals
Take in the fresh air
and bloom with all your might
Because what you are is what I see is fair.

I walk down this path
To a place I wouldn't go
Unless there is a reason
Why I shouldn't.

Ironically so, I walk without wrath
To wherever this road will go
And such, no glimpse of the sun
Has yet to fall, as if it couldn't.

Neither her nor there
This empty road of dents
Bears no warmth or joy
And is one I have never wished for.

However, I go as I swear
I will never have any heart bent
Nor would I try to accept this ploy
To take away my only exit door.

I won't cry, because I know
That even the princess of the snow
Will never shed a tear for me
But I still wish for her plea.

So, here I walk, in this darken place
With no hope nor dreams to pace
No life for me to change
Nor a choice to enrage.